i loved you once.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

aubrey, maybe some day you would look back and remember the girl who really loved you so much. maybe, just maybe. thank you for all the 6months. all of it. down to the point of hurt and emotions. i love you. and maybe when the time comes, i loved you.

-EDIT-
I'm sorry for everything. everything we've ever said is just a living lie.

on the 1st of May I foldede stars and hearts in a jar for my first moniversary present to you
you got me a necklace and bracelet
the beating of my heart is like the pillar to our relationship; the day we part is the day is the day my heart stops beating
micheal, michelle, romeo and emma. sounded so great and real.
bounce on the 19th of may
"one minute of fame" at marina square
the boxers i bought
and the time when you couldn't spell
and remember when I said "peter pan once said in order to fly you must first think of a happy thought?" I said later on that "you make me fly!"
on the 1st of June I bought you a pencil box
you got me a bear and adidas shirt you used to wear
on the 20th of June i woke up only when you arrived at city hall
we watched "over the hedge"
on the 1st of July I made you a video with the song "only one"
on the 8th of July you bought me 12 packets of chocolates (chocettes)
on the 15th of July we spent 12 whole hours together
on the 16th of July, family fiesta, we played with gel and wax at nick's place. then we went for prata at thomson and i got super high on sugar.
on the 17th of July I bought roses for you
on the 22nd of July you got ur new phone,i came back from camp, and i was diasppointed cuz we couldn't go out. i guess misunderstandings just hurt.
on the 1st of august I got you van shoes and made another video with the song "what I've been looking for"
you got me a wedding teddy bear
on the 8th of august I got so pist drunk but you were there for me throughout the whole time. I'm sorry I couldn't control myself.
on august the 12th we went to the zoo. thank you. i had the best birthdays in 15 years of my life.
on august the 15th I went to korea
on august the 16th I came back for you. And when you looked at me when you saw me at the aircon vents, I just loved the look on ur face. It showed how much you really missed me back then. And till this day I don't regret coming back.
on the 1st of September I got you a puzzle I did all framed up and did yet another video with the song "when you say nothing at all"
on the 6th september you called and said "I just called you to say something. I love you." and I just thought, it was hard not to love you back.
on the 9th september we went to the botanic gardens
before the exams, without fail, on wednesdays we would go to des's place and tried to study. but i guess it was more on spending time
on the 7th of october i did my last video "you raise me up" to you. you did make me feel on top of the world
on the 13th of october we went to ananya's party
the exams just took me away from you
we spent the whole of friday together. we had fish and co again. we went shopping at penisula. we went your house to swim.
on 26th october open house i wasn't exactly there to support your band. I'm sorry. and when we went skating I just unecessarily made you believe that I was pist but I wasn't.
on 28th october we spent the last of our days at nico's place. and to think you were still concerened bout me
It all ended on our moniversary.
in the past i would be sayin six months and counting. I can't say that anymore.
so here's to all the childish names I gave you. diabetic baby. monster. my only one. the great wall of you and me, etc.

it was great while it lasted. here's to 6 months. be strong alison. be strong.

Just one chance you asked,
Just one dance we made.
Just one time we stepped,
Just one goodbye we bade.

Just one hand I will hold,
Just one glance we smile,
Just one word we know,
Just once, but all worth while.

Just one breath we took,
Just one kiss and we part,
Just that one single look,
Just in heaven, heart to heart.

i wonder whether you were worth it all.