Wednesday, September 28, 2005
If you've got a problem with me,
come settle our difference now.
don't back stab me.
I don't need that.
And I think you shouldn't do
Something as LOW as that.
Show who you really are.
I'm sure everyone's
Given A chance to be themselves.
Unless you wanna continue wearing
That mask.
Go ahead,it's you choice.
But please keep yourself
Under control.
You hurt others when you don't know it.
Forgive thoes goes who sin against you.
Yea,i guess so.
EXAMS IN ONE WEEK!SCREAMS!
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
I have sinned.I've not been blogging.But i have to this time.I wan to let everyone know,that he will be missed badly that those who were family and friends to him.Jasper has passed on,two days ago,on Tuesday morning,20th September.
But I didn't know till that same night.Received a sms from Matthew sayin that he has passed on that faithful morning.I called Sheryl to confirm the news.Yes,it was true.I didn't really register it in.I know I could not believe what I was hearing.Sheryl had cried for him already.She and him were s'pose to go out with her band members on Saturday,but he couldn't make it cuz he went to church.But that same day,he smsd her and said he was in pain.I guess it was a sign.sheryl was lazy to reply,but she did try to call him on Monday night.That was it,the end had come the next day.Life is so unpredictable.Jasper suffered a relapse and was sent to the hostipal.They tried their best,surgery,kimotherapy,chinese medicine,everything.But i guess it was not meant to be.Why Jasper?Why him?He was such a nice person.He seemed like a healthy boy when I got to know him last year.He even went running with me.bleh.that was the last time i saw him,last year.I won't forget that day.It was my second and last time seeing him alive.How i took him for granted.I knew about his condition in its inital stages,but I didn't visit him.The simple "hi"s a make when I see him online.I didn't make it a point to tok to him and ask him how was life.I could have been a better friend than I was then,but now all is gone.I can't turn back time.But if i could,i would.I would treasure all the time that was left of his life.Why wasn't I there?I am fortune's fool.I had such a good friend right before me but I made a mistake by not treasuring him.I'm sorry Jasper.I can't hear his voice anymore,I can't talk or sms him anymore,but i know if i go tml i will be able to see him once more before hez really gone.No,he won't be gone.he will always be in my heart.And i know he will never be forgotton amongst those who knew him.memories not forgotten.
I love you Jasper.Rest In Peace.
And this song is dedicated to you,I hope you can hear my silent prayer:
Yeah, this right here goes out to everyone
that has lost someone or that
truly loved....
Check it out....
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorius they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me!
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death
CHORUS:
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Everytime I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you
(We miss you, Big....)
It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death
CHORUS
Somebody tell me why...
One black morning
When this life is over
I know, I'll see your face
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Chorus
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Chorus
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
(We miss you)
i wonder whether you were worth it all.