Thursday, November 30, 2006
haha. ok. update! for the past few days I've had loads of last minute meetings with people. but they all turn out fine (: I don't really have a timetable for going out which really sucks cuz I'll wake up every morning and not find anything to do at all. and even if I do meet people at some place somewhere it'll be so fucking tiring taking the public transport. especially when you don't have your ezlink card. coins are heavier versions of money. PFFFT. and like I said to kevin, "watching old aunties and their saggy boobs are a disturbing sight when ur sitting and facing them and listening to sean paul's 'temperature' song" . hahaha. -.-"
I've watched step up, the grudge2, casino royale, happy feet and everything else except the covenant. no fucking idea what that is but I know I'm too fucking lazy to go watch a movie. downloading is only illegal when you get caught (: now it's just off to video ezy and renting dvds off the shelves. another alternative is best friend's house who practically owns his own vcd/dvd store. he has LOADS of movies to watch. but he's grounded and his new hobby is math. my hobby is rotting cuz I passed math (:
I literally sat there and watched 3 hooligans play warcraft through the night. talk about addiction. seriously. but I guess it was fun cuz for the record, I wasn't home for 24hours and no one had bothered calling me to ask where I was. pooo ):
one thing's for sure. matthew is on the same boat as me. it felt great just sitting there, talking and eating raisins and drinking orange juice. funny combination yea but it took the pain we were goin thru away. for awhile at least.
you can say blood is thicker than water <3
ok so well. I spent today goin all the way to school and it was a pointless effort but I managed to talk to Fahmy (: and since hes gonna be in the US for 3months and he'll be living 250miles from where I'll be. and he's working at a amusement park and during that period it'll probably be summer holidays so I'll be stayin over and eatin amusement park candy flosses everyday! yummms. I met charins for lunch. took an hour long bus ride. I passed many places and well, it hurt. really bad. oh oh oh. but charins is such a fun person! we wanted to walk the fountain thingy in suntec to get good luck but cuz it was close due to the water gushin down, we couldn't walk around it. SO! We created our own version. we walked round the thingy 3 times, but this time, we were INSIDE of suntec. ahh. only charins would know what I'm talking about. hahahaha! (: thanks for today babe! it was great talking to you <333then we went to marina square and like wanted to steal candy from CANDY EMPIRE! but we didn't. hahaha. then we were walkin to esplanade and met MILES! hahaha. then he was looking for audrey but had no idea where to look. so we helped him and we had fun! hahaha. then we left and went to charins' house. and I swear. Her dad is damn cute and funny. I wish my dad was just as cute and funny. then I went to meet Kenny and charins went to meet des. Kenny's goin zouk tonight so he was all dressed up. we had loads of fun talking. damn do I miss the AM CLIQUE ): but yea. we got him ear studs and we went cinei level 9 and just talked! haha. it was fun. he had strong mints and I hate 5 at one go and it was freaking hot. hahahahha! but yea. then he walked me to far east so I could take a straight bus home. and it was fun cuz we just listened to my ipod and took weird pictures with the ads. Kenny was really sweet today. THANKS KENNY!!! (: <333>
and i want his phone. it's like a camera. I swear. look how sharp the pictures are.
oh. and I forgot to thank nico, nick, jo, brina, patt, rachel, michelle, patt's friend, chris and JJ for coming all the way to toa payoh. and the best part was hearing you guys cheer (: <333
ok. tmr is lunch with kevin. monday dinner with chris and family. tues is sentosa with gabriel. and wed! David and Hugh are coming back! I miss david terribly ): and hugh too of course. we better go out this time. and mayb phuket with ingrid and steph. then I'm off on the 14th. these 2 weeks don't seem so hard anymore.
P.S. eh, best friend. please get urself ungrounded leh. alamak sial.
and tmr is the 1st.
and will you tell all your friends; you've got your gun to my head
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
There are times when
I look in your eyes
I see the love that we share
I see the joy inside
But I didn't see the feelings you hide
& now you're saying goodbye
Because your love is done
& all I can think about is you
The way you say you love me too
& everytime i close my eyes I see your face
My love can never be erased
If you can never be replaced
vivo city is like fucking big! I was in sentosa for three days and i've been passing vivo 6times and I never really imagined it being that fucking huge! best friend must come with me one day! so I bought some stuff for canada. (yes, I'm still short of stuff till now) and I had the craving for sushi but it was fucking $$ so we went to swenson's instead. then we walked around toys'r'us and I felt so happy being in NEVERLAND again(: except that maybe you don't make me fly no more and we headed off to Giant and bought milk. got milk? my fucking ass la. then went baq and watched loads of vcds to kill time. dinner sucked. I went home and watched some more vcds. life is fucking boring in times like these. oh shit. I'm playing this tues.
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Friday, November 24, 2006
best friend's stomach is giving him problems. I'm telling you it's reproduction for him! (:
I went back to school
and sat at the locker
I was alone for awhile
till i thought of that fucker
I lit up a cigarette
thinking i wouldn't get caught
afterall school was out
no one could report
then you turned round the corner
and stared at me sitting there
I threw my cigarette immediately
hoping you weren't gonna flare
shit, I thought
you were gonna hate me for that
but instead you walked away
without turning your back
I ran to the bathroom
To get rid of the smell
But when I ran out to find you
The area was dead as hell
You didn't leave a trace
No goodbye no nothing
Instead you left behind
Me. The one who meant something.
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
HAHAHAHAAHHAA. MUDDER FARKER!
"FUNNY LIKE FUNFAIR! "
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
aubrey, maybe some day you would look back and remember the girl who really loved you so much. maybe, just maybe. thank you for all the 6months. all of it. down to the point of hurt and emotions. i love you. and maybe when the time comes, i loved you.
-EDIT-
I'm sorry for everything. everything we've ever said is just a living lie.
- on the 1st of May I foldede stars and hearts in a jar for my first moniversary present to you
- you got me a necklace and bracelet
- the beating of my heart is like the pillar to our relationship; the day we part is the day is the day my heart stops beating
- micheal, michelle, romeo and emma. sounded so great and real.
- bounce on the 19th of may
- "one minute of fame" at marina square
- the boxers i bought
- and the time when you couldn't spell
- and remember when I said "peter pan once said in order to fly you must first think of a happy thought?" I said later on that "you make me fly!"
- on the 1st of June I bought you a pencil box
- you got me a bear and adidas shirt you used to wear
- on the 20th of June i woke up only when you arrived at city hall
- we watched "over the hedge"
- on the 1st of July I made you a video with the song "only one"
- on the 8th of July you bought me 12 packets of chocolates (chocettes)
- on the 15th of July we spent 12 whole hours together
- on the 16th of July, family fiesta, we played with gel and wax at nick's place. then we went for prata at thomson and i got super high on sugar.
- on the 17th of July I bought roses for you
- on the 22nd of July you got ur new phone,i came back from camp, and i was diasppointed cuz we couldn't go out. i guess misunderstandings just hurt.
- on the 1st of august I got you van shoes and made another video with the song "what I've been looking for"
- you got me a wedding teddy bear
- on the 8th of august I got so pist drunk but you were there for me throughout the whole time. I'm sorry I couldn't control myself.
- on august the 12th we went to the zoo. thank you. i had the best birthdays in 15 years of my life.
- on august the 15th I went to korea
- on august the 16th I came back for you. And when you looked at me when you saw me at the aircon vents, I just loved the look on ur face. It showed how much you really missed me back then. And till this day I don't regret coming back.
- on the 1st of September I got you a puzzle I did all framed up and did yet another video with the song "when you say nothing at all"
- on the 6th september you called and said "I just called you to say something. I love you." and I just thought, it was hard not to love you back.
- on the 9th september we went to the botanic gardens
- before the exams, without fail, on wednesdays we would go to des's place and tried to study. but i guess it was more on spending time
- on the 7th of october i did my last video "you raise me up" to you. you did make me feel on top of the world
- on the 13th of october we went to ananya's party
- the exams just took me away from you
- we spent the whole of friday together. we had fish and co again. we went shopping at penisula. we went your house to swim.
- on 26th october open house i wasn't exactly there to support your band. I'm sorry. and when we went skating I just unecessarily made you believe that I was pist but I wasn't.
- on 28th october we spent the last of our days at nico's place. and to think you were still concerened bout me
- It all ended on our moniversary.
- in the past i would be sayin six months and counting. I can't say that anymore.
- so here's to all the childish names I gave you. diabetic baby. monster. my only one. the great wall of you and me, etc.
it was great while it lasted. here's to 6 months. be strong alison. be strong.
Just one chance you asked,
Just one dance we made.
Just one time we stepped,
Just one goodbye we bade.
Just one hand I will hold,
Just one glance we smile,
Just one word we know,
Just once, but all worth while.
Just one breath we took,
Just one kiss and we part,
Just that one single look,
Just in heaven, heart to heart.
i wonder whether you were worth it all.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
you were everything everything that I wanted
we were meant to be, suppose to be but we lost it
all the memories so close to me jus fades away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
i wonder whether you were worth it all.